Yep, I know I have been bombarding this blog with my hopes of having a baby. So for those who are wondering why we do not have a baby yet (for 6 years now), here is the story...
Just like with other trying to conceive wives out there, I had my share of getting frustrated every month since I have regular periods. You just can't imagine how I cried while hugging hubby and telling him that we failed again. And year after year, it pains us even more when we would hear relatives and friends asking "o, wala pang baby? si ~name~ inunahan ka pa." That even became worse when we decided to finally do some fertility work ups.
That was 2 years ago that we decided to go and see a fertility expert. Hubby complied with the test that was needed. I, on the other hand was found out to have retroverted uterus. No problem really with the position of my uterus, kahit retroverted pa, pwedeng mabuntis. I took fertility pills then. First cycle, I took Clomid. That did not work. Second cycle, I took Clomid still but with added dosage. All I can remember is that for these 2 cycles, I learned how to shop for pregnancy test kits. Oh, you could have seen my stash of pregnancy test kits. I would not settle for just one test just to make sure that I get the true result. But thinking about it now, I am not really after the true result but the result that we wanted-syempre, positive dapat.
Third cycle, I took Arimidex. Also, my OB said that I could have endometriosis. That is just her impression with all the symptoms that I have given her. Endometriosis would only be confirmed with a laparoscopy. During this cycle, on my 24th day I had spotting. I immediately went to my OB and she said that it could be an implantation bleeding based on her computation. I took Duphaston . On my 28th day, I am supposed to test. I did and it was negative. One more week has passed and I still do not have my period. That kept my hopes high. I have regular periods and never missed or got delayed. But after 4 more days, I got my period. I think I was overreacting then and decided to stop with the work ups. I need to prepare myself emotionally and not to mention financially. I was at that time on the state of being devastated as well as emotionally unstable -- probably caused by the pills that I took.
We stopped with the work ups (for the meantime) but never with the work ups of the GUY up above. We no longer stress ourselves. But we never, not even a millisecond that we stopped praying and hoping for having a baby. We are planning to resume the fertility work up anytime on November or December. We trust in the Lord but we know that sometimes, science goes along with this belief, at least for our case.